Something new, something old; something finished, something yet untold

Am going to be very teenage and post up lyrics: of an ancient song I first heard when I saw The Royal Tenenbaums as a teenager. Don’t remember much about the movie itself (twee and quirky like all Wes Anderson films) but the soundtrack is smashing and has stayed with me every since. Especially this:

These days (sung by Nico)
I’ve been out walking
I don’t do too much talking these days
These days
These days I seem to think a lot
About the things that I forgot to do
And all the times I had
A chance to

 

I stopped my rambling
I don’t do too much gambling these days
These days

These days I seem to think about
How all these changes came about my ways
And I wonder if I’d see another
Highway

 

I had a lover
I don’t think I’d risk another these days
These days
And if I seem to be afraid
To live the life that I have made in song
It’s just that I’ve been losing
So long 

 

La, la, la, la, la
La, la 

 

I’ve stopped my dreaming
I won’t do too much scheming these days
These days
These days I sit on cornerstones
And count the time in quarter tones to ten
Please don’t confront me with my failures
I had not forgotten them 

Pretty much sums up everything.

…Technically nothing’s really new about my life, except maybe a slightly alien sense of there being a tad more space for myself, mentally. More space, more grace, less chatter and less sharp objects inside my head.

Tis the season of reviving dying friendships.

Yet some die naturally anyway. Sigh.

Leaving much unsaid. And someday, as certain characters transition into absolute strangers again, nothing will be awkward anymore.

I’m not sure I look forward to that day.

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